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Cattle Cars
In April, 1945, the war was almost over, but not for us. The Nazi obsession to kill ALL Jews Never weakened.
Yet another transport. Closed cattle-
Herded together in the burning sun,
the box-
on a hill . . . at the end of the world.
Once I was hungry – last night, last year?
Once I knew no fear . . once there were no trains,
Now I dream of rains and tropical fruit,
my throat is on fire. How long as it been –
how long since I’ve seen my sister?
Panic grips my heart and I start to shake . . .
there she is: Blaneczka . .. alive, awake –
she touches my brow and cries,
Someone whimpers . . . someone dies.
I smile and my lips crack. I am happy, but why?
I forget, I sigh – so hard to recall;
the ghetto . .. the wall . . and my mother gone.
Perhaps she is dead and resting in peace.
I hope she was spared these indignities,
my lovely Mateczka – no, I couldn’t bear
to watch her shrink and fade away -
Like Stefan’s mother; ugly and mad,
the shaven head, the greedy eyes -
so utterly dehumanized …
But God is merciful – He is!
Did He not spare my mother this?
These years of agony and pain,
Or is God insane – like me?\
My sister-
“Be quiet, my dear, this is a selection”
Yet despite the action – I grin:
“I win, I win.” My mother is dead
But instead of tears, I laugh and rejoice . . .
O the choiceless-
. . in that other world . . . in that other place,
where children were burned while mankind stood by
. .. and the universe has yet to learn why,
has yet to learn why.
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